Think about it…
They sit there writing away while you are talking and they are asking you shit…
they don’t even have the decency to SHOW you what they wrote.
okay okay okay
I get it whatever there are reasons for all of this and blah blah blah. I don’t care about that right now.
I just think it wouldn’t be the end of the world as we know it if they could turn that shit around at the end and say…
“Did I get this right?”
bECAUSE we have NO freaking power in it…
it is literally their word against ours and we are the weaker party because we are “crazy”
think about it.
They could be writing down ANYTHING in there.
and since they are flawed humans and in my experience a great many of them are
completely incompetent not good, then we really have no guarantee that they have really understood…or whatever.
So they can say what they want to say later and they have the upper hand.
I once had a pdoc “remind” me that I thought I was a prophet from God and needed to spread Jesus or some shit like that and
I SWEAR to you I NEVER said that to her.
- Because it didn’t happen.
- Because I WOULDN’T HAVE TOLD HER IF IT DID
I hope you believe me that believing I was a fucking “prophet” or some shit like that has NEVER been part of my Bipolar experience.
Not that I haven’t gotten spiritually wacky, oh I have . but not to the lengths she was saying I did.
And guess what? I am spiritually wacky unmanic as well!
Newsflash world…look at all the religious people you could dx as psychotic. (I am not knocking religious people)
that was a tangent.
Point being that when I was confused and denying this prophet accusation she was giving me the most condescending little smile….
like I was a crazy little idiot who didn’t know what I was talking about
the girl who had been so manic and delusional that she didn’t know what she was talking about….
isn’t it cute she is denying it now
and I KNEW that was what she was thinking and it was an
enraging feeling because I knew that NOTHING i said here was going to give me equal credibility.
I fired her too.
(As a side note. This woman was SO bad that she actually told me things that were PROVEN incorrect and really caused a lot of damage for me. I really should report her ass)
She is the one who should look like an idiot
But I’m the one with the diagnosis
I’m the one who had to bravely share incriminating uncomfortable dare I say PRIVATE information about myself in the name of getting appropriate treatment.
and then have my words turned around and twisted in my face.
I mean SERIOUSLY.
Do they really not understand what that is like?????
Okay I am too fired up about Pdocs now. Go here for more of what I think about them. (It isn’t an angry post)
and I bet even some of you
but you should
Hey you therapist people!!!!
Don’t just sit there and write shit about us!
and then tuck it away without even offering us the chance to see it.
It is disempowering
and could be dangerous for us
Plus it is just kind of rude.