Thank You for the Support about etc blah I can’t think Of A title

I want to thank those of you who took the time to comment and give me such beautiful light filled support.

You don’t know how much it means to me.

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And thank you to Laura who I don’t believe has commented before and yet stepped up when I needed her.  That matters a lot.

I know that I never really commented on blogs before I started this one.  Even when I was moved to tears.  It didn’t occur to me to say anything…that it would mean anything that much.  But it does.  As all of you bloggers know. And I really appreciate it.

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My hope is that the many many of you who read and did not comment also truly care………..

and aren’t just here because you want to fuck me.

(Forgive me! I couldn’t resist. 🙂 )

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Just to clarify.  This man isn’t a WordPress user, I don’t believe.

I have realized that this is about him.  Not about me.  This has nothing at all to do with my blog.

And while I understand the sentiments expressed in the comments, I will still protect his anonymity.  If I believed that not doing so would protect other people than I definitely would but I don’t believe this to be the case.  I will not delve deeper into this but you can trust me.

Misogyny is shockingly socially acceptable.

Additionally, I am not being a weak woman when I say that I truly don’t want to cause more pain to a person who is so obviously suffering.  Because people who do these kinds of things are not okay.

I am not condoning behavior like this when I say I have compassion for this person.  …….Good luck on your journey.

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One way or another my motivation has evaporated and I am having the “nobody cares about me” feelings.

I was already in a weakened “mood state” dealing with other stressors and I am sure you can all relate to what happens when one more heap of crap gets dumped on you.

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As I’ve said repeatedly.  This blog is about REAL bipolar.

I’m not going to stand here and act all tough and badass and like you can’t hurt me blah blah blah.

I mean I am tough and bad ass but Bipolar is not that simple. BINFSS

This is real Bipolar.  I am Bipolar.  And I’ve been triggered.

plain and simple

Who remembers the 4 Ss of triggerdom.

Well yeah.  You see then.

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I can’t write stuff if I don’t have motivation to say anything.  I’m not going to post stuff just to post stuff.  I’m not going to waste your time.

From the very beginning of this fool’s errand I have purified my intentions….

No ego in it

I don’t care about praise

I don’t care about the Stats

I don’t about those awful social media style facebookesque “Like” buttons

I don’t care about amassing an enormous following

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I care about helping you

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I think I have a piece or two written that I could go ahead and post for you guys who have fought for me to stay.

I’ll see what I got.

Thanks again for all of your support.

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I won’t disappear but I’ve got to go get my Bipolar on…..

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  1. Leslie

    Don’t forget that as much as you want to help us with your writings, your writings help you as well. They can be a release, they can help you sort things out. Even if you choose not to continue to write on WP, still try to find a way to get all the stuff out. It’s useful to everybody

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  2. Toodles

    You fiking Rock! Do what’s best for you. I’ll be ready for more of you’re blogging, when you’re ready.

    Take care and be safe!

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  3. DM

    I’m so glad to hear you are doing what YOU NEED to help heal yourself at this time. All the way from compassionately protecting this man’s identity (I admire that) to revealing your vulnerability. You can be both badass and vulnerable. That’s what’s great about being human. : )

    Thanks, again, for keeping it all real.

    You know you have my prayers/best wishes.

    Peace, always!

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