this is not for everyone.
If you have a good psychiatrist who you trust and who is helping you and who respects and understands you.
Then you have no problem
But too many people do not have that.
Too many people are being damaged or hurt by psychiatry for many different reasons.
and these people need help.
(this will not be popular with the docs)
Here is what I think….what I have been forced to think…
the only way through this is to accept that they are not helpful and that you are in charge of your care…
whether they think it or know it or not.
we have to figure out how to ummm manipulate them…i know i’m going to get rapped for that one
research read and ask others about meds…
I am a big dork in this way…
I went to CrazyMeds and other sites and listed meds that sounded good for me…
I read the package inserts online…
I tracked down the studies that I could find…
I spent a ton of time searching internet discussion sites finding “reviews” by people who had actually taken the drugs.
I figured out what I thought was the best med for me and I found somebody to give it to me.
I was lucky because it was the perfect drug for me. But I am not saying it is that easy. and i hate saying that.
I feel like saying you found your perfect med to other Bipolars is like telling a group of women that you don’t have to workout you just are that skinny.
I am not trying to say that you will find the perfect med better than a doc…what I am saying is get involved!
For my first round of meds…which were a nightmare…
I read and researched NOTHING
I just trusted the doc
I just popped them in my mouth
Later when I was researching meds I realized how bad those meds were for me.
Now if a Pdoc “suggests” something I won’t go near it until I have researched the crap out of it.
Yeah I know that is so bad…all of the people reading crap on the internet and thinking they know more than the docs…
maybe that should be a wake up call to the docs……..
And before I would take it I would run the doc through a whole list of questions….
why are you suggesting this?
has it been proven to do this?
can you show me the evidence?
etc etc etc
and yeah we can google
and again…I wish it weren’t like this.
I have had some very bad experiences.
and it isn’t my fault
I hear other people suffering because of their docs
it isn’t their fault
we would all love for the system to be great and helpful
but it just isn’t
If I had listened to my doctors I would probably have been destroyed by now.
That sounds extreme but I can assure you that I would NOT be here and I would not have achieved the stability that I have achieved.
it is sickeningly true
It frightens me beyond belief to think about what would have happened to me if I had listened to each of these people.
I am not at all happy to say these things.
I wish that is was different
like choked up tears wish it was different
Everything I ever got from psychiatrists that actually helped me…I had to fight for…nobody was ever just going to give me what I needed or do what I needed or help me.
I had to make it happen
think about what meds you think would work for you
then get them to give them to you
sometimes they are resistant but many times they are not invested enough to fight you for long.
Unfortunately, i think the best psychiatrists may be the forgetful malleable ones.
I had one who would not budge.
She was dead set on giving me a med that I had already been on that had given me the worst nine months of my life. (I have since done genetic testing and found out why).
She would not consider giving me the med I wanted for reasons that turned out to be completely and undoubtedly WRONG
and this was confirmed when I told not one not two but five other Pdocs and two other doctors and one psychologist.
It wasn’t me people.
This lady ruined months of my life.
She only didn’t ruin more because I fought back.
I just think we need to change our thinking from “they are the doctors who help us and treat us and know what they are doing…to
If you want something done right you have to do it yourself and they are there to write the scripts.
At the end of the day you know NOTHING about this person. They could be ANYbody. Who knows what they do and think and believe behind their curious concerned stares?
They are just people too
and who knows why they ended up in psychiatry…
we should ask them in our initial interview..(which should involve us getting to ask questions NOT them taking our whole history)
we should say “What made you want to practice psychiatry?”
I bet the answer would be enlightening.
That is what I am doing.
What I feel forced to do.
tell them as much they need to know to give you the drugs or the interventions that you know you need.
Obviously, if I was suicidal or in danger of some kind I will say that.
Unfortunately that is our life.
Be smart. Be safe. Don’t take anything that is not prescribed for you. Only take it the way it is prescribed. Tell them if you are in danger…or feel like you are getting there.
We just have to do that however unfair it is.
this could get me in trouble with the establishment
but I am sincerely trying to help.
I am going to push Genomind again because it takes some of the guess work out of it…or makes their opinions less necessary because there is more info about what you actually can and can’t take and what is actually more helpful. So then you are relying on some actual Science. Not just their opinions and experience.
Just so any psychdocs in the audience understand…
I didn’t write this because I want to be trouble
believe me I wish it was different.
I am saying it because most of us actually have no other option.
If you don’t like it…