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Sometimes I Crave Depression

I don’t actually know this time if anyone else has ever had this feeling the feeling of actually longing for the depression sometimes…. it is not real obviously because when it comes it is horrible and those previous longings seem foreign and ludicrous i remember having this feeling a long time ago wondering why in…

Bipolar paradox…Identity…Truth

Anybody who has been reading me for awhile has probably noticed that I can be a bit stereotypically pejoratively Bipolar. Flip flopping from one side to another. Love it Hate it Proud Shamed is it a disorder it’s not a disorder etc etc etc . I stand by all of that as just another declaration…

not dead but Free

Sometimes exhausted From it all Even in the light of day over it the dealing and dealing and holding it all and trying and trying and acting as if it’s all fine and The appointments the meds refilling and med cases and refilling again the expectations and being so misunderstood being so hidden the sacrifices…

Bipolar and the Spiritual

Hot topic I know.  This may put some people off.  But this may help other people. Because I know many many of us struggle with this issue. So many of us have experiences while manic that are basically mystical and if not full blown mystical are intense in a spiritual way beyond  the realm of…

A fragility to our stability

There’s a fragility to our stability There is a strong in our weak There is an up in our down A bliss in our hell Darkness in light An ill in our well There is a break in our whole There is pain in our hope There is nothing in all A new in our…