I was watching a TV show last night in which a man said to a woman…
“You’re not hot enough to be crazy”
The implication was not that hotness is listed in the DSM as a defining characteristic of being crazy…
no
the implication was that crazy is only tolerable in an attractive woman.
a “hot” woman
now this man was smack you in the face obviously supposed to be a dickwad
and it wasn’t a romantic situation
but it struck me anyway
especially because it came on the heels of an interesting (as usual) conversation I had with another Bipolar woman.
and it was about this idea
it was us asking this question
is crazy more tolerable from attractive well put together woman.
Is that what society thinks?
So then to hear this line in this show just kind of saying it….
well it made me want to think about it
so here I am thinking about it.
So is this like A Thing?
I’m not a man so I don’t know if they have some standards for how much crazy they will deal with according to how pretty the girl is.
Are they willing to deal with the crazy if they get pretty out of it?
and what about the rest of society….what about in a more general sense?
is this how it goes?
“She’s nuts but she’s adorable”
so it’s endearing
“She’s a crazy bitch but look at that ass”
like it’s worth it?
it’s worth dealing with the crazy?
there is a compensation
and somehow a fair amount of attractiveness cancels out a fair amount of crazy….
especially when that attractiveness is brought about or combined with a level of maintenance that makes a woman look….
“put together”
It all makes sense in a way given that the world likes pretty people
it just IS that way
So yeah…
maybe you get a pass of some sort
when you’re hot
maybe you can even be hot “enough” that people will accept your crazy
maybe you can be hot enough that people may find your crazy
cute
endearing
fun?
Crazy without Cute is just…..
Crazy
And Crazy is a huge pain in the ass
Once as a child……… maybe 8 years old?….
I went to school with my hair in pigtails
Proud was I of the glorious silky tails and cutesy feminine bows…
I was a small woman child
already attaching importance to my appearance in a way I am certain the second grade gentlemen did not.
And I felt pretty and adorable
and I liked it….
but the point of telling you this is that on this particular day…..
I didn’t do my math homework….
and I was singled out and told off a bit…
I was embarrassed and shamed and all of that
and my first thought was….
da da DA!
At least I look good.
For some reason this story (and tons more like it) feels relevant to this post.
and For some reason it feels relevant to the rest of my years following….
my years as a woman
my years as a Bipolar Woman
because where does this idea of…
“You’re not hot enough to be crazy”
put all of us “Crazy” women
perhaps many of you do not relate to this issue
but I know that many of you do
how are we supposed to deal with this?
how DO we deal with this?
is it by freaking out about our appearance?
every pound
every wrinkle
Do we feel DOUBLE the responsibility to “look good”?
one…because we are a woman
and
two….because we’re starting behind…we’re already at a loss….
because we’re damaged goods…
we are already NOT WORTH IT
and we damn well better AT LEAST…
be nice to look at
Like if you’re going to screw up and be Bipolar you need to at least be pretty.
throw the world that bone
Pull yourself together
dress cute
be cute
fix your face
and don’t eat
and maybe we’ll let the crazy slide
and
Maybe we will say……
Oh yeah that girl is Bipolar…..
BUT
(incredulously)
isn’t she pretty?
I don’t even understand what “You’re not hot enough to be crazy” means. If you’re poor-you’re crazy, but if you’re rich – you’re eccentric has been the rule for some time, but I never heard it referenced by appearance.
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As one who has always had male friends and been considered “one of the guys” thus they don’t even bother with filters around me…The crazy-to-hot ratio is indeed a thing. R reminds me daily when he mentions this ex of his who had paranoid delusions yet..she was petite, blonde, and pretty so…all was worthwhile.
Whereas I am not pretty enough for my crazy to be worthwhile.
Yeah, it’s a thing and it sucks and the worst part is…Even if you look amazing, there comes a point where the crazy overwhelms or ceases to be a novelty and they bail anyway.
Imagine if a woman were to say a man is only acceptable if ugly but has a big bank balance…
They will never draw the parallel.
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Sexism at it’s finest. We as women can’t win in this world. Really unique post. Thanks for sharing your opinion on this common issue.
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